i woke up today feeling a little overwhelmed. just kind of on the verge of tears. but i mean, i cry a lot in general, in life. =) but i woke up just feeling like everything is closing in a little bit. i'm really blessed to be where i am and i'm so excited about the opportunities ahead of me, but it's just a lot all at once.
the environment we are in here is incredibly intense, the expectations are so high, and there are people constantly watching us, even at the hotel. two people have already been sent home. so between all that pressure and the people... well the people are very different than me.
i've had an amazing, blessed, simple life. i've never had to doubt why i am here or what my purpose is. i have full confidence in that. and it's hard for me to be surrounded 24 hours a day by people who just seem so lost to me. who's priorities in life are so completely different than mine... i'm naturally an extremely empathetic person and i have to consciously separate myself sometimes, because i get so "in" things. i don't know if that makes sense.
anyways, tonight i am going to go to the night service at central christian church for some me time. plus, i just saw jamie tworkowski of to write love on her arms is speaking, so that should be interesting.
but right now, i'm headed downstairs for breakfast, a quick workout in the gym, and than a day of studying. miss you all!
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